“Love Is Not Always Blind”
Guest Writer: R. L. Norman
I stood at the door to the apartment, preparing myself for the mystery that was in store for me.
“Behind this door might be my perfect soulmate,” I thought.
I checked my clothes, my breath, my hair—everything. I had to make sure that I was totally “on point.”
My hopes soaring, I got up the nerve to knock on the door. A voice told me to come in. So, I opened the door and slowly walked into a dimly lit room. I hesitated just a bit to give my eyes tine to adjust to the darkness.
As I got closer and closer, I noticed a man sitting on a chair in the middle of the room. I stopped dead in my tracks when I realized that the man was completely naked.
“Norman, is that you?”
“Yes. Are you Jimmy?”
“Yes.” I just stood there as he made small talk, recounting our previous conversations via phone and text messages.
Suddenly, I heard some noise coming from another room! Quickly, I stepped back because I assumed we were alone. And then in a blink of an eye, another person came into the room.
Befuddled, perplexed–I took another step back.
“Norman, meet Timmy,” Jimmy announced.
Timmy was his twin brother! It was then I realized why Jimmy always said something about “two tons of fun.” Next, they informed me that they wanted to have a threesome.
I didn’t know what to expect–but I was not expecting this! Unfortunately for them, I couldn’t even handle one ton! (LOL.) I quickly declined, and left.
Blind dates are a trip.
As I walked to my car, I was wondering if this was the best way to find a man. I drove home disappointed yet again, and climbed into my lonely bed.
As I lay there, I started thinking about my previous dates. You see, this was another date that I had made on line through one of those dating apps. I don’t normally do the blind dating thing–but what’s a lonely man to do?
And I was a lonely man.
I had a regular routine of work, home, cooking dinner, watching TV and going to bed. And the next morning began the “rinse and repeat” cycle. I’d been single since my divorce three years ago. I was used to it, though.
To an extent.
But do you know the worst part? It was at night, when I had to face the reality that no one was laying on the other side of my bed. And only my six pillows against my back were helping me imagine that there was a man right next to me.
There was no warm body to cuddle up with, and to hug and hold during the night. And sometimes, the pain of loneliness would be so bad that the tears would well up in my eyes. I’d grab my pillows tight to try not to face the fact that I was scared of being lonely—and alone–forever.
However, I discovered how to solve the problem to find that perfect soulmate. On the weekends, I would peruse the so-called “dating” sites for that temporary fix: holding, cuddling and possibly having sex with someone–if even for a moment.
I was looking for someone to give me that temporary feeling of love.
But at the same time, I’d hoped to meet the man of my dreams!
I remember Tracey, a guy I met on Adam4Adam, one of those dating apps. I would say to myself, “There’s just got to be someone on this app who’s looking for more than just sex!”
I’d been talking to Tracey for months, and the vibe between us was great! My only issue was that he was twenty years my junior. And you know those young guys have those famous lines: “I like older men” or, “I can’t relate to men my own age.”
Eventually, I visited him at his home. As we conversed and drank for a while, we developed an awesome connection–everything was going rather well!
Until slowly, he revealed his true intentions.
He began asking about my income, house, car, etc. Suddenly, he seemed more interested in material things. Bottom line: he was looking for a sugar daddy!
I couldn’t afford to take care of me; so there was no way I could take care of him. That “relationship” ended before it started.
Next, there was James, the man that changed my name! And it was not that he had a short memory span: he just decided to call me by different names.
I met James on the Tango app. I always thought it was to video chat between friends and family. Who knew you could also pick up men!
Before meeting in person, James and I spoke for months. We had so much in common that we spoke particularly every day for hours. He had my heart. Or should I say that his voice had my heart.
Finally, we decided to meet in person. I was so excited! I knocked on his door, and this “phine,” sexy man greeted me. As they say, “tall, dark and handsome.”
I followed him to the living room, and that’s when it happened. He suddenly turned around, and before I knew it, he was kissing me–tongue and all! He was doing such a good job that I just gave in and returned the favor. And I don’t know how it happened, but suddenly, my clothes fell off! And there we were on the floor, exploring each other’s manly bodies–and in more ways than one.
During that encounter is when he changed my name. It was not Norman anymore. It was Baby, Honey, Sweetie, etc. And he added “love you” to that numerous times. Either I was good at what I was doing, or he was crazy! I would like to think I was good. Come to find out, it was both.
But after some time, I had too slowly disappear out of his life. He was moving to fast. He was calling me constantly, and actually started stalking me. I made the mistake early on in giving him my address. He popped up everywhere, and knew my every move. It got scary.
So, tell me: what does a lonely man do? Does he continue to search the internet for love and affection? Or does he just continue to live alone and lonely? There are so many lonely people in the world that I figured that sooner or later, I’d find him or he’d find me.
So I continued my search. And one night, I knocked on another door.
It was opened by a very nice-looking man. He was about 6′ 2″, 220 lbs. of muscle. Brown skinned, he sported a mustache, beard and bald head.
And let’s not forget his beautiful smile! He was my kind of man.
His name was Lenny.
He led me into the living room that was dimly lit by a fire burning in the fireplace.
I noticed a blanket and a picnic basket on the floor in front of the fireplace. Also, there was some wine and a platter which consisted of mixed strawberries, grapes and melon. What a delightful surprise!
Lenny and I stretched out on the blanket, eating and drinking particularly all night long, as songs filled the room. We talked, laughed and cuddled.
The first kiss happened while we were listening to Teddy Pendergrass singing “When Somebody Loves You Back.” It was then I was in heaven! It was then that I knew I’d met my perfect stranger. This date made up for all the disastrous ones I’d gone on.
After reflecting on all the blind dates I’d had, I would never have believed meeting him was possible! But I had gone from loneliness to happiness. And Lenny was my happiness because this was the anniversary of our first date two years ago.
But now, here’s the funny thing: I didn’t meet Lenny via an app, or on line. Actually, I met him in line–at a grocery store! He just started talking to me. And then he asked me out for a drink, right then and there.
And now here we are.
Now, I’m not discouraging people from doing the “blind on line dating thing” because I’ve met some very wonderful people in the process. Just keep your options open, because your partner might be in the grocery store also.
I’m simply saying that loneliness is hard at times. It’s probably the hardest thing to deal with in life. Because regardless of your circumstances, being lonely and alone make your situation seem ten times worst.
Your perfect stranger is out there somewhere, and you will find each other. Just be patient, and one day you’ll turn around and he/she will be right there.
So you see, love is not always blind. You just have to open your eyes and keep the faith, and let your Lord fight your battle of loneliness. You simply have to keep your mind and heart open. Trust and believe that your God has your back.
As singer-songwriter and record producer Faith Evans says, “Keep the Faith.”
R. L. Norman is a writer, performer and author of the popular series of novels entitled, “Honey Let Me Tell You.” The fourth and latest installment is “Love Is Complicated.” The sequel will be available soon. As well, he performs“Norman’s One Night Stand,” a one-man show he conceived and wrote, showcasing the main character of his series. R. L. also is writing a play based on “Honey Let Me Tell You.” All of these endeavors are part of the production company he’s forming. You may reach R. L. at his on line home, www.rlnorman1.wix.com/honeyletmetellyou; by email at: firstname.lastname@example.org; on Facebook at RL NORMAN; on Twitter, @rl_norman; and on Instagram:rlnorman1.